My pregnancy journey.

I know what you are going through right now. I have been through it all, the trying, the ‘not trying’, the health issues, the constant feeling of 'running out of time', the pressure....gosh so much pressure, the miscarriages, the self inflicted guilt, the health system telling you it’s too late, the costs of IVF bills, the feeling that you are alone and all you want in life is to be a mother and yet it is always out of reach. You watch your friends raise kids, you are amazing aunty but you just want your OWN baby. I know I know. I was 42 and felt all these real feels and I want to share my story, one from genuine sadness through to hope, through to having a baby, so that you can see what IS possible. I conceived naturally and I believe a lot more women in their late 30's and 40's can do the same.

I will share stories of others and how they worked through their own hardship that was dealt to them. I want you to be inspired to keep going when you feel like you have nothing left.

You hear stories of miracles but where is your freaking miracle?

Please note, I am not a medical practitioner in any manner (even loosely). Instead I’m someone with a passion for writing who has been through this journey and wished I had such a resource when I was in that dark place. I want to give back. I know what it is like to want a child and feel so alone. This is a place for you to read, be inspired, give yourself that little bit of energy when you feel done, when you feel like you want to give up. This is your forum. This is your place. This is for you.

My story: 

I became a mum of a baby boy when I was 43. Naturally conceived at 42.

I have numerous reasons why this should not have be possible: I have one fallopian tube, I had lesions around my reproductive organs, I have endometriosis, I have Crohn’s Disease, I am in my 40’s and had recently suffered a bad case of Adrenal fatigue alongside high anxiety from a midlife breakdown. This tension was affecting my work, family and social life. I was crippled with fear, hopelessness and my body was cactus. Then after going through all that, my body just gave up on me and wanted to do nothing more than sit on the couch and slowly shrivel up.

I want to show you that despite ALL of this - I was still able to fall pregnant. Once I worked out what to do and take the steps to do it.